atonement

today i went back to my own church in delft for sunday service.  it is hard to imagine that last sunday i was still attending the service in JLH in harajuku.

today i had the chance to testify in front of my church congregation about japan, earthquake and of course my personal feelings.  i couldn't imagine that i got so emotional while sharing what i have been through since march 11th.  the sharing is nothing more than what you have read in my blog entries but putting them verbally requires a lot more courage than simply writing them.  i guess i am still not over with the mourning and confrontation of the situation, although i have not created the earthquake or tsunami but i am confronted by the fact that i have not done my part better than i would have to.

today i don't have photo to share with you, well, rather i don't find that appropriate. instead i have two videos (courtesy of the one who produced these videos) that i want to post here. 

this video shows you how the earth is moving for the 7 days since the first earthquake and tsunami struck japan.  at one stage almost the entire middle honsu and up north were affected.

a production (mr. childern to u) from a japanese artist sakurai kuzatoshi (桜井和寿).  i cried over and over again when i watch this video.   at one point an elderly japanese man got rescued and he kept saying that things will be fine and that all will be rebuilt... ? he lost EVERYTHING but could still be so positive. it just put me to shame how i freak out and complain about little things in my life...

perhaps i am living in atonement. atonement for the natural disasters that i am not responsible for, but atonement for the acts that i should have done but not doing enough as a christian. second chance is what i asked the Lord for, a second chance for me and a second chance to those who are still alive in japan.